You are currently browsing the tag archive for the ‘perturbed’ tag.

Is a poke Love?

Or is it War?

Here’s what I don’t understand: What does a facebook ‘poke’ mean? For those of you who aren’t familiar with the phenomenon which has gripped facebook, the tool allows the user to poke their friends, with the friend receiving a notification upon their next log in to the site, that they have been poked by someone, also giving them the option to poke back. As you can imagine, this often leads to months of poking back and forth. But what does a poke actually mean? Their is one school of thought, that says that poking is something colloquial friends will do to one another, in a ‘poking war’ of some sorts. But I’m certain that it means more, there is another school of thought saying that poking someone means that you want to sleep with them, and this is where the problem reaches me. My crush, MS, (not Microsoft Word, if you were suspicious of the activities I engage myself in with my computer), and I are involved in a fruitful poking war, started by me, but passionately involving him as well. Just to give you some quick information on my crush, well, he is more of a ‘mutual flirt partner’, who regularly flirts with me, as the title probably suggests, and often refers to himself as gay (as a joke?). This ‘[love] war’ has lasted several months now, and I’m beginning to wonder what this poking actually means. I think that the matter probably affects many more people than me, which is why I wanted to put it forward, as I obviously haven’t been able to ask anyone what they think about it. The idea of poking someone, certainly has an erotic affiliation, but at the same time it has a playful, competitive one. Why did Facebook add this odd application to their website? Is it to give poor love-struck teenagers such as I a false sense of confidence when it comes to their ‘poking partner’?

Too-dah-loo!

Well, firstly – if you’re new to this blog, you should see the post beneath this one, it will give you a little background information on who exactly I am…
Now – informed reader – my first dilemma isn’t actually all that new, it’s been plaguing me for a few months now, and that is – What should my policy be on girls?
Over the past few months, I have received quite a lot of interest from the opposite sex, namely – the female. For a normal teenage guy of my youthful years, this would not pose a problem, but for me – it is! I have had to decline quite a few offers to ‘go out’ with girls, namely from SG, LJ, and KP, and I worry that more is on the way. I really enjoy spending time with these women, but don’t want it to turn into anything that it is not! What should I do!? I’m under an unbearable amount of pressure from society to ‘get with a girl’, and it is almost all my friends talk about, but as a guy still in-the-closet, it’s the last thing on my mind! What should I do when people ask me whether I’ve had a girlfriend or not, whether I’ve ever kissed a girl? What should I do when girls flirt with me? Help!

Enter your email address to subscribe to this blog and receive notifications of new posts by email.

Join 4 other subscribers

The Diary of a confused gay teenager. Explained.

There are two reasons I have started this blog:
1) To fill time, entertain myself, and to hopefully provide myself with a 'journal' of my coming-of-age years
2) To do my bit in contributing to the gay teen media on the internet, and to offer an alternative perspective on what it is like growing up gay in a more accepting world, and to provide an insight on the progression of a Gay teen through his youth, as he gradually learns more and more about himself and begins to enter the gay community.
If you enjoy my posts please subscribe or at least leave me a comment so I can gain an insight on how this type of blog is viewed on the other end of the media cycle.
Happy blogging!

Archives

Hands

Click for a definition of 'homosexual'